If God is for us, who can be against us??

The title of my blog is the truth that is keeping me going today. I don't know why...but these last few weeks have been some of the worst of my life. It seems like ever since coming back from the Passion worship conference in Jo-berg, life has been so confusing, relationships have been confusing, I've been struggling with things I never thought possible, I've had to make decisions that have been unbearably painful, and worst of all I haven't been doing my part in the battle...through prayer and getting into the word.

Passion was awesome!! God really touched our lives and afterwards I was sooo on fire and ready for whatever!! But then it was like back to reality and the reality is....as i'm still realizing...that some things needed to be changed. If I want to stay on fire and truly go deeper with Christ...He has to come first in my life, above all the things that I love like soccer, and even some of my relationships with people. So what do you do when you want to be closer to God and know you need to be in order to live a life that is pleasing to Him and worth anything....but the desire isn't there to do what needs to be done. Is it normal to have these dry seasons?? How do you quench the thirst when the only water sources in reach are polluted?? I know there is one available that is ready to fill me to overflowing with love and mercy and peace....His name is Jesus....and I desperately want to get there. I'm on my way!!!